my life as the 5 of wands

well mayhaps it's the supermoon we just had or the chaos leading up to mercurys retrograde wed. but I have argued more this week than I have in YEARS! lol about silly stuff that doesn't matter at all, it IS the 5 of wands arguing for the sake of arguing, OMG could I be turning into my grandfather? yikes!  the 5 of wands is silliness, sparring, and just basically it doesn't matter no ones gonna get hurt or do any real damage at all. it's just exhausting and a waste of time and energy and normally I wouldn't have bothered. glad I recognize now so I cant stop myself from takin the bait again or baiting others (i'm a master-baiter BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!)

of all things is started off about paula deen because I said I thought they were taking her words out of context and exaggerating them to make a news story, well gall darned if that didn't just piss off the pc police and when you jump at me I jump back! so through it all I just kept getting riled up and ready to punch somebody in their throat! lol

anywho after all of the turmoil in the shower last night I had my aha moment of clarity and here it is!

CLARITY! mayhaps I just got some in the shower. water tends to cleanse the palate and let the truth seep in for me. I think the reason paula deen is such a hot button issue is she's tweakin that which we hate in ourselves. cause EVERYONE wh...o has ever told a redneck, jewish, gay, polish, black, native American, dumb southerner joke is just as guilty. racism covers all races. I guess I empathize with her because I am her. I grew up in the deep south and have ingrained in me all the prejudices that go with it. it's inevitable you cant help it. I have however chosen to aschew those traits I don't morally agree with. do I use the "N-word" no I do not. I will admit though to it popping in my head when I get angry, just like cock-sucker and faggot do. and lord knows I don't have a problem with bein gay! lolol it's been shown time and again the worst gay bashers are closeted gay men. I also think bein a Gemini I more easily see the dual nature and both sides of an issue dispassionately like heinous speech that I loathe is still protected by the constitution and I absolutely stand by anothers right to do and say as they please as long as it doesn't infringe on my ability to do the same. thusly when we attack someone for doin something we have done we are attacking ourselves by trying to disassociate from that which is our own weakness. does this fix the problem no, but mayhaps if one person listens and looks within it will change the world one mind at a time! we are all human we are all relations we are all headin to the same destination even if we're traveling a thousand different paths to get there.

  this may not be a game changer for y'all but if you look inside mayhaps you'll be a better person when you confront those demons and deal with em!

 

 

sasha past present future

for those who don't know a brief explanation.........it's a 10 card spread past present future. the 1st three are past with the fourth bein what is carrying over into the present, thus the 7th card carries over into the future.
SASHA PAST PRESENT FUTURE

PAST = 2 of pentacles, knight of cups, 9 of cups, 3 of swords
2 OF PENTACLES:
this is the cylindrical nature of finances, ups and downs and generally trying to keep a balance so that all needs are met. you just instinctively "know" what you need to do so make sure you do that which is necessary and don't let impulse lead you astray.
KNIGHT OF CUPS:
this is a severe emotional change in a positive way and is a final outcome card. emotionally you did what you had to do even if it seemed difficult or impossible. and it was a heavy load to be burdened with.
9 OF CUPS:
this is a life in order, chaos has been dealt with and now the success you have is yours, you have earned it.  emotionally you should be content.
3 OF SWORDS:
you've weathered the storm and the darkness shall be quickly dispelled. this is your time to trust and to allow yourself to shine! the confusion that seems overwhelming is but fog to be burned away in the sun when you trust in yourself. the illusion is gone and the clouds have parted so that the truth is evident to you.

PRESENT = that 3 brings continued clarity to your journey, 10 of pentacles, 4 of swords, 7 of swords
 10 OF PENTCLES:
this is a gathering of family or those like family a reunion of sorts. it's important that you go whether you want to or not. it will be revealed later how important it was for you shall want/need their backing in the future.
4 OF SWORDS:
you need to slow down and meditate and pay attention to you. your health and spiritual well being. it's ok to put ones self first sometimes even necessary. if you have questions look within pay attention to your dreams and intuition they will not lead you wrong. it may seem confusing when you're used to putting everyone before you but you'll help them more by helping yourself.
7 OF SWORDS:
this is doing something considered "wrong" but for the greater good. it's sneaking around but with a high moral purpose. by doing so you're seeking to help/protect those around you and spare them from pain/sorrow. just make sure you stay clear and focused on the true goal and keep to your higher self.
 FUTURE = the actions of the 7 are still in play and bein felt, the high priestess, the hierophant, the 2 of swords
THE HIGH PRIESTESS:
this is a female with good psychic and spiritual gifts. she is at a crossroad between spirit and earth at this time. she is the beginning and the end and controls mystery and mysticsm. a very powerful female coming into her own with MAJOR decisions to be made. the future is now and what you do shall determine whether your path is high or low.
THE HIEROPHANT:
this is tradition the doing of things as they have always been done without thought or reason. mayhaps it's time to look into the why of it and to release those old patterns once and for all that no longer serve you. this may mean leaving behind that which is familiar and seeking out things that resonate with who you are now in this time and place. this a very passionate area but surrounded by confusion the energy needs to be directed with thought and intelligence.
2 OF SWORDS:
you must make some decisions it is necessary but procrastinating will do you no good. you are waiting for all the information and you're not going to get it. spirit is testing your faith, you must act on instinct and do that which feels right. there is no real danger as long as you choose a path and stick to it. changing course is to be avoided at all costs, once you decide what to do you must play it out till the very end...........this will bring you illumination.

this was very open ended so I decided to peer further into the future..............
THE CHARIOT:
you must try to stay balanced so you can move forward. focus on the goal at hand and do not allow yourself to be bogged down or be wishy washy that will cause you to be at a standstill.
6 OF SWORDS:
this is fear or responsibility and being honor bound to do something that isn't really yours to do. but you've accepted or been coerced into the situation now you must make the best of it. though it may seem overwhelming and difficult now you're going to get so much unexpected joy  and all those fears vanish leaving the happiness and bliss that this shall bring to you, and to those you have helped along the way. it was a GREAT decision for all concerned!
THE FOOL:
and so ye shall be blessed by the Gods/Goddesses. your mishaps shall turn into blessings as you are watched over and protected by angels. it may seem odd to some you're grounded in intellect but ruled by your passionate nature. you are a self created spirit whose joy and innocence are a blessing in this world. you've come to that space where you KNOW that all shall be well no matter what. I think you've always "known" that in your heart but sometimes your head mayhaps doubted it. the journey has ended one cycle and now you're wide open to move onto the next phase of your existence. that emotional innocence shall always find you laughing through the hard times and understanding deep within that all is as it should be.

miz viola michelle past present future

for those who don't know a brief explanation.........it's a 10 card spread past present future. the 1st three are past with the fourth bein what is carrying over into the present, thus the 7th card carries over into the future.
 
MIZ VIOLA MICHELLE PAST PRESENT FUTURE

PAST= the tower, 5 of wands, 9 of pentacles, ace of pentacles
 THE TOWER:
this is the hand of God getting rid of the useless and obsolete to make way for the new. the old energetic cycle has ended and a new one begins. this may have been truly awful at the time but in the end it moves you along your path towards the higher self.
5 OF WANDS:
this is fighting for the joy of fighting, sparring really. it's a petty conflict probably over fallout from that tower, I hope you have not involved yourself in it and if people try to suck you in simply walk away do NOT engage.
9 OF PENTACLES:
mayhaps there's a bit of depression from all the turmoil and perceived loss. I suggest staying grounded, meditation and bein outdoors will certainly help. you are comfortable in your own skin even if you forget sometimes. revel in that and do things to make yourself happy. balance is also key you have to work on the physical, mental, and spiritual with equal zeal.
ACE OF PENTACLES:
a new path is opening up for financial prosperity, trust in it for it is a real offer. this is like a rebirth and you should embrace and believe in your abilities. it's goin to be ok.

PRESENT = that ace is still affecting you and if you haven't decided a direction the time to do so is now, 4 of cups, the magician, 8 of swords

4 OF CUPS:
this is havin what you thought you wanted and still not bein satisfied. there's a lack of commitment and discontent. but to be satisfied is gonna require introspection. what do you truly want, not what you settle for. this is the higher self the need to live and not simply exist.
THE MAGICIAN:
this is the ability to lay aside passion and to figure out intellectually how to make something happen. it's a wonderful thing to be passionate about an idea but you must figure out how to make it happen in the real world. that long held dream can become a reality but it is you who has the power to make it so ( so mote it be)
8 OF SWORDS:
this is a feeling of restriction and control but it's self restriction your actions or doubt make you a willing prisoner (whether you realize it or not) and all that is required for you to live free is for you to trust in yourself and step outside that zone of comfort, for it is there that magic happens.

FUTURE = you're gonna be untangling yourself for a bit from that 8, 8 of cups, the world, 6 of cups
8 OF CUPS:
this is walking away from emotional security to climb the mountain. it is the letting go of your bonds and seeking your higher self. do not fear you are not alone and the path will be well lite. pay attention to the moon and to what happens in the land of dreams. if you don't already know it your psychic abilities are getting stronger so pay heed to "intuition" it's there for a reason, even if your brain tries to overthink and explain stuff away.
THE WORLD:
this is the crossroads and you have literally the whole world to choose from. make sure you choose that which elevates your soul. take the high road and be the person that you were meant to be. im getting something about a 4 so if a 4 comes up pay attention.
6 OF CUPS:
this is a reunion with the childlike joyous you, reconnecting with those sweetest childhood memories and it may involve an actual reconnect to someone from your past. have no fear for you are safe it's real. you can be innocent of spirit and revel in the simple joys of life. you've found what you were missing so hold onto it and keep that wonder alive in your life. fill yourself with love, light, and laughter and spread it to the far reaches. you alone can make such a difference in others be that inspiration that shows others how to live and not simply exist.

shawnna past present future

for those who don't know a brief explanation.........it's a 10 card spread past present future. the 1st three are past with the fourth bein what is carrying over into the present, thus the 7th card carries over into the future.
SHAWNNA PAST, PRESENT, FUTURE

PAST = 3 of wands, temperance, 5 of swords, 8 of pentacles
3 OF WANDS:
you're enjoying the fruits of your labor, truly made life choices to do that which your heart wanted. your hard work has paid of in ways far exceeding your expectations. this is standing on the shore of your destiny.
TEMPERANCE:
this is all about dynamic flow and the need to stay balanced. if you get out of balance illness can follow so always be diligent.
5 OF SWORDS:
this is a battle which you won, some kind of contractual/legal issue mayhaps. it's high conflict but was resolved in your favor. now you can reap your rewards .
8 OF PENTACLES:
this is the "apprentice" card you're about to move up to a higher level. as your skills improves so will your financial well being. you've paid your dues and financial progress and expansion are the result . of course that means new independence and the responsibility that comes with it.

PRESENT = the 8 continues the financial expansion, the hanged man, wheel of fortune, king of pentacles.
THE HANGED MAN:
in the midst of all this financial expansion your spirit work is also growing. you are balanced between the worlds and your intuition is at an all time high right now. pay attention to it! it's a wonderful line to walk but keep a balance between the 2 worlds so you don't fall.
WHEEL OF FORTUNE:
this is the cylindrical nature of life and ones path. the lessons you are working on now are karmic in nature. this is neither good nor bad it simply is.
KING OF PENTACLES:
this is a man of honor, his word is his bond and no contract is needed with him (get one anyway!)
probably in business for himself or otherwise in charge. very good at making money and can be generous but expects others to be like him and make their own way.

FUTURE = the king is still influencing day to day life, 6 of wands, 10 of swords, queen of swords
6 OF WANDS:
this is a great achievement, success, being honored by your peers.it's almost like a parade some kind of big recognition.
10 OF SWORDS:
this is my least favorite card in the deck. it's a betrayal by someone close to you and not an enemy someone you thought trustworthy. pay attention to your intuition and dreams for the conscious mind may not see it coming but that uneasy twitch you tend to ignore is there for a reason. if you feel "off" about someone take precutions so as to limit the damage emotional or otherwise. (I feel an 11 is involved somehow and I have no clue what that means I was just shown 11)

QUEEN  OF SWORDS:
this is the archtypical stern judgmental female. she's all about right and wrong black and white there is no appeal once she decides something. she seldom if ever listens to others and believes she is incapable of making mistakes. and trouble is brewing cause bein right is all that matters to her.

I can't leave you hangin like that darling so i'm gonna look further into the future and see what I see....
THE WORLD:
this is the crossroads and you have choices to make. literally anything you want is an option at this time, the world is yours so make sure you don't allow anger or sorrow to play into your choices listen to that intuition that is so very strong in you and reach for the higher self the road less traveled may lead to nirvana.
KNIGHT OF WANDS:
the decision has been made and it indicates major life change, beware of balance once again don't let that momentary burst of temper/fear ruin what you want/need to do. this card can change moods at the drop of a hat (it's a Gemini or acts like one! ) so make sure to remain calm and focused when dealing with stress/life
9 OF SWORDS:
this is awakening from the dream and facing reality. what you instinct has been telling you has come to pass and you're beginning to see clearly now. trust that truth you now see for tis real. it's confusing when you're trying to decide between perceived reality and what your "gut" knows. the illusion is dispelled and the truth you have "known" is revealed.
ACE OF CUPS:
this is the offer of a bright new beginning emotionally, mayhaps even a new life and i'm getting it's centering around family in some way. but still a little foggy/confused for me. mayhaps a birth or wedding or both. it's a happy emotionally charged beginning on all levels..............air, fire, water, and earth are represented.
8 OF SWORDS:
this means letting go of fear and healing yourself of that betrayal. these self imposed restrictions are not needed any longer. it's time to open your wings and leave the mundane behind for sometimes a leap of faith is required.
7 OF PENTACLES:
this is normally reaping what you sow but it's more than that this is the harvest. it's timing to get the best result so pay attention and make sure in any business dealings you're given the optimum amount when it's at it's peak. it feels almost like getting enough to be set or the future to be set.
6 OF SWORDS:
this is taking on a responsibility not yours and you probably don't want to do it but are not given much of a choice. somebody has to step up and that's you. you rescue others and that's a great responsibility and can be overwhelming at times. however this will give you so much unexpected joy it will be one of those things when you're 80 you'll smile from your heart and say "that was the best thing I ever did"


 

jen past present future

JEN PAST PRESENT FUTURE

for those who don't know a brief explanation.........it's a 10 card spread past present future. the 1st three are past with the fourth bein what is carrying over into the present, thus the 7th card carries over into the future.

PAST = 6 of wands, 9 of cups, the hanged man, the hermit
6 OF WANDS:
the 6 is an achievement and being recognized by your peers. acknowledgement of a job well done. and the wisdom gained through the process.
9 OF CUPS:
this is a life in order, you have earned your success through hard work and diligence. you're also wealthy in emotion and content with where you are.
THE HANGED MAN:
this is the spirit walker who balances between the two worlds physical and spiritual but pay heed it's a fine line and balance must be maintained.
THE HERMIT:
those nagging questions fluttering in and out around your happy life are nothing you can go and research and find out. only by looking within can you find the answers you seek. this is a time for contemplation and meditation. also pay attention to your dreams for often spirit will share with us in dreamtime.

PRESENT = the introspection continues and will until you understand what your subconscious is tryin to show you, 10 of wands, 10 of cups, ace of wands

10 OF WANDS:
you've taken on more than anyone should and are in danger of bein overburdened. the lesson here is to learn to say no, do not volunteer for anything else until the current projects are wrapped up. this is the classic case of you cant see the forrest for the trees.

10 OF CUPS:
the 10 of cups is your emotional wish list, it's what your heart most desired or thinks it desires. all hopes will come to fruition but there may need to be some adjusting your thoughts/actions on your part to make it so.

ACE OF WANDS:
the ace directly relates to the 10 of cups. I think a new job or promotion may be forthcoming. it is an honest offer and should be where you're directing your life force. there is no hidden agenda take it at face value.
 FUTURE:
decisions to be made with that ace, knight of cups, 8 of pentacles, 4 of swords
KNIGHT OF CUPS:
the time is here you must decide if this direction is right for you, do not let fear be a factor in this if a mistake is made it will be because all the details weren't paid attention to. so do your homework and trust your intellect and your intuition.
8 OF PENTACLES:
this is the apprentice card it represents moving up to the next level of skill. you have paid your dues and financial expansion and progress are at hand. remember with this new independence comes new responsibility.
4 OF SWORDS:
stop bein frantic over all this slow the mind down and meditate if you don't you're gonna make yourself ill. and in meditation/introspection you'll answr and little doubts or fears with this giant step you just took.
 ok darling I wanted to pull another card just to make sure you weren't gonna frazzle yourself over this.................
THE WORLD:
lolol well this is just what you think it is, the world is yours the crossroads are before you now pick your direction bevasue right now you can literally go any way you want.
JUSTICE:
this is the perfect balance between right and wrong, it's also a professionsl review and dealins with a governmental body of some kind..............( which includes a school district or college)

ocianaa michelle past present future

for those who don't know a brief explanation.........it's a 10 card spread past present future. the 1st three are past with the fourth bein what is carrying over into the present, thus the 7th card carries over into the future.

(I normally don't add pics but felt called to do this).............the lotus blooms no matter what is has been through, and the deeper the mud the more spectacular the bloom
 PAST = justice, 7 of wands, hierophant, 5 of cups
 JUSTICE:
justice is a double edged sword it metes out right and wrong to strike a balance. it's also tempered within societies standards. and while not always what we want to happen I think it had to happen. sometimes we go through things not pleasant that we don't truly understand so that spirit can get us ready for the next thing, a better thing.
7 of WANDS:
this is all about keeping the high ground. who/what you think is the enemy may not truly be. there are unseen forces at work. do NOT step or look back you could lose the high ground. be viligent and do not falter.
THE HIEROPHANT:
this is tradition or coming from a very rigid background. carrying on in the same manner whether or not it serves a purpose anymore. it's almost stagnant. it's ok to question that status quo and you may have to to let go and move forward.
5 of CUPS
when you've experienced a loss you grieve, many wear the cloak of grief and despair, but you can't mourn what you'velost to the exclusion of what you have...........never let you past be bigger than your dreams. what has ended is no more, but you have so very much to be thankful for. the 5 reminds you to have joy and appreciation for all the universe has to offer.

PRESENT = remember the lesson of the 5 and keep that appreciation of life going, 2 of cups, the devil, the magician
2 of CUPS:
this card represents balance  and the need to stay balanced, that which heals can kill if you use too much. this is an emotional contract between absolute equals  towards a future. and i'm not bein shown any other details on this.
THE DEVIL:
the devil is bein chained to earthly desire and ruled by baser emotions. there's a control issue here. it would be so easy to go in an unhealthy direction at this point cause the high road seems to have so many obstacles but it is worth the effort. this also shows the need for balance and just focusing on that goal and letting earthly desires derail you.
THE MAGICIAN:
 a very powerful male capable of being quite overwhelming and over powering. he can lay passion aside and be maddeningly intellectually controlled. a very practically controlled person. he does all he does in perfect order and expects the same from everyone.
FUTURE=, that magician is still around affecting everything 9 of swords, queen of swords, and 4 of cups
9 OF SWORDS:
this is the "AHA" moment the waking into reality and dispelling the illusion. trust your instinct/insight and react accordingly even if the brain tries to talk you out of it. dispel that cloud of confusion around you and pay attention to those insights garnered in the dream world. it's time to face and see the truth.
QUEEN OF SWORDS:
she is a stern judgemental female who is never quite satisfied. right is right wrong is wrong and there are no extenuating circumstances of shades of grey. there's no listening to others because she feels she's incapable of making mistakes and once decided there will be no looking back. sometimes though in order to get past something you have to become rigid and not give in. there is mayhaps a reason for the way she has become. i'm sensing fair complexion and auburn/brownish hair.

4 OF CUPS:
this is attaining all you thought you ever wanted and not being satisfied. something is missing but you don't neccesarily know what at this point. the need to commit to a path and keep going without deviation is vitally important. i'm not saying to lower standards but mayhaps lower expectations and just be open to gratification for any and all that the universe has to offer.
I felt the need to pull 3 more cards as this seemed unfinished to me.
FUTURE: that 4 and being open/grateful continue to be important, 4 of pentacles, the tower, page of swords
4 OF PENTCLES:
you need to be frugal at this time and don't waste any money or effort unnecceasarily. if you're offered an opportunity i'd pass, at the very least cover you ass legally and financially.
THE TOWER:
this is the culmination of all the turmoil it's the universe sweeping all the bad negative bs out of the way. the ending of the cycle and the old so that you have room in your life for the next thing and it shall be a better thing. trust the process and know it'll be ok but keep those insurance premiums paid!
PAGE OF SWORDS:
he's here to put to rest that whole cycle that ended and allow you a clear path to move on. legally, financially, and emotionally. he is the righter of wrongs and all shall be as it was meant to be.
       I simply NEVER end a reading on a page, it's way to open ended for me so I pulled one last card and it's a dilly! (in a good way!)
6 OF WANDS:
this is success, it's the parade after the battle when the hero is bein cheered by his peers. a great achievement has been made and all the sacrifice and struggle was worth it. and through this whole process you've gained wisdom that will hold you in good stead for the future. enjoy it because you have earned and deserve it.
 

victoria w h ....past present future

for those who don't know a brief explanation.........it's a 10 card spread past present future. the 1st three are past with the fourth bein what is carrying over into the present, thus the 7th card carries over into the future.
PAST= justice ,5 of pentacles, the lovers, 5 of swords
JUSTICE:
justice deals with the perfect balance between right and wrong, mayhaps to do with legality or some type of court appearance. definitely something to do with a governmental body mayhaps a professional review.
5 of PENTACLES:
don't let pride or fear keep you from asking for help. there is no shame in needing assistance. you understand that you need to ask for help because you know where you need to go for it and that makes you uncomfortable. relying on others seems fraught with danger but it's ok you're not gonna disappoint anyone and it's not a failure in their eyes at all.
THE LOVERS:
this is a perfect spiritual physical and emotional union. it represents unconditional love and acceptance at least for now. if it's romantic love those passions may dim but the embers remain in the friendship that formed and much knowledge of yourself is gained. this didn't actually have to be sexual in nature.
5 of SWORDS:
the battle has already taken place and you won, it was high conflict. the legal issue has been resolved in your favor. this definitely has a severing of a relationship kinda vibe. not really getting whether it's a divorce, the breaking of a business partnership that part is muddled so mayhaps both.

PRESENT= the fallout from the 5 of swords is still resolving its self, the hierophant, page of wands, 2 of pentacles
THE HIEROPHANT:
he represents the old order doin things the old way with no clue why. old rules and traditions that no longer serve a purpose. he's tradition. and mayhaps you need to break free of the past and learn to do things that serve you well now at this moment in time. there's a need for fluidity a freeing of energy and emotion. don't get/stay stuck because it's what you're used to.
PAGE of WANDS:
the page of wands brings messages relating to ones business and health, not neccesarily dealing with finances though. a change in the direction you're taking to ensure your well being. there can be some hot headedness here so make sure that you don't get discouraged . keep goin and follow through.
2 of PENTACLES:
this is all about finances bein a juggling act especially in business sometimes it seems you have to rob peter to pay paul.  this balancing act of finances is eternal it's the ebb and flow of prosperity as long as you keep goin you'll be fine. the only thing to be wary of is becoming stagnant out of fear. that will stop the flow.

FUTURE = that financial balancing act is gonna continue for a while, the empress, 5 of wands, temperance
THE EMPRESS:
a brilliant mind but sometimes not so wise. very fertile a new beginning or business , perhaps a revamping of the old. this is a GREAT time to try that new concept/idea/direction as the empress is giving birth , the grains of life and abundant fertility.
5 of WANDS:
this is arguing for the sake of arguing, it's sparring. a petty conflict not serious and no one shall be injured but do not involve yourself. it's time some folks stood on their own and dealt with things instead of running to you. your time and energy is precious and is best served bein focused on your own higher path and not the squandered squabblings of adult children.
TEMPERANCE:
make sure you tend to your balance and take care of your physical self lestwise you become ill. this is all maintaining a balance and keeping that dynamic flow goin. I see an improvement of some health issue as long as you don't overdo and exhaust yourself.
this was the reading but I felt I needed to clarify and pull one more card.................
2 of SWORDS:
the decisions you're making must be made on instinct. don't listen to that right brain controlled intellect, go with your heart. the info you want is not gonna be forthcoming so you have to trust you instinct. there's no danger here justice will prevail. the only danger is changing course midstream. whatever you decide to do, do it and finish it.