todays card is Death:
death can be literal as well as figurative. it is the ending of a cycle or time whether energetically or physically. in tarot it most often comes up when it's time to let go and move on, it can be traumatic but only if you cling to the known (good or bad) and refuse to move forward. that brings stagnation and pain oftentimes, so why not let go and allow it to fade away while the bright new dawn beckons us. fear holds us in limbo oftentimes and makes us cling to the misery we know as opposed to the possibility of joy/growth that exists.
I attended my monthy tarot group last night and got some illuminating and wonderful messages about the journey I'm on and the process of allowing my truth to change and mutate into THE truth, Death is the process allowing that to happen. the ideals I have projected and protected were my vison/version of the truth and I painted them with rose colored glasses firmly on face. allowing reality into my illusion doesn't change the reality iot merely lets my truth intergrate to a whole new level of understanding.
the Death card for me represented (in MY reading) difficult females and my perception of what is female. this is a recurring theme in my life, I lost my mama when I was a mere wee lad and have always seen her with that mama's boy perfection. however that was far from reality as she was human and she had some really big issues and flaws. for whatever reason she kept me away from the darkness surrounding her and I never knew (dealing at 46 is eye opening to say the least) for whatever reason my sister wasn't so lucky and we have been estranged thru no fault of our own for many decades. I'm integrating this new info into my truth and honoring hers without changing my concept/memory of mama at all. she was beautiful and complex (aren't we all)
I said there was multiple females and there are, mama was but the first. I have tended to be drawn to very flawed/damaged women as friends and mayhaps subconsciously I was trying to offer them the assistance I wasn't able to offer mama. so as I evolve away from this need to "fix" the women around me I have opened up myself to allowing some wonderful beautiful women into my life, I just have to remember not to project my screwed up ideas onto the present and future as the past slips away. I'm also reminded that I need to forgive and I do that regularly. forgetting is another matter my step-mother has been reaching out and I just cant go there. she was pretty awful and it even ended up with me being emancipated by the court and suing her for my daddys insurance money (I won) it was acrimonious to say the least. I have no desire to let her back into my life because in her dotage she feels the need to rid herself of guilt. that is her bed and she can lie in it..................so I release you of all pain that I felt and hope that you are well/happy but I am not bound by honor or need to let you back in. so mote it be.
sometimes my original meaning gets lost in the flood of words when I open channel so one hopes this mish-mash made sense to ya'll! and forgive me for airing such personal stuff into the universe but alas the book is open and sometimes in a tome ya gotta take the tales of woe with the fits of giggles!
death can be literal as well as figurative. it is the ending of a cycle or time whether energetically or physically. in tarot it most often comes up when it's time to let go and move on, it can be traumatic but only if you cling to the known (good or bad) and refuse to move forward. that brings stagnation and pain oftentimes, so why not let go and allow it to fade away while the bright new dawn beckons us. fear holds us in limbo oftentimes and makes us cling to the misery we know as opposed to the possibility of joy/growth that exists.
I attended my monthy tarot group last night and got some illuminating and wonderful messages about the journey I'm on and the process of allowing my truth to change and mutate into THE truth, Death is the process allowing that to happen. the ideals I have projected and protected were my vison/version of the truth and I painted them with rose colored glasses firmly on face. allowing reality into my illusion doesn't change the reality iot merely lets my truth intergrate to a whole new level of understanding.
the Death card for me represented (in MY reading) difficult females and my perception of what is female. this is a recurring theme in my life, I lost my mama when I was a mere wee lad and have always seen her with that mama's boy perfection. however that was far from reality as she was human and she had some really big issues and flaws. for whatever reason she kept me away from the darkness surrounding her and I never knew (dealing at 46 is eye opening to say the least) for whatever reason my sister wasn't so lucky and we have been estranged thru no fault of our own for many decades. I'm integrating this new info into my truth and honoring hers without changing my concept/memory of mama at all. she was beautiful and complex (aren't we all)
I said there was multiple females and there are, mama was but the first. I have tended to be drawn to very flawed/damaged women as friends and mayhaps subconsciously I was trying to offer them the assistance I wasn't able to offer mama. so as I evolve away from this need to "fix" the women around me I have opened up myself to allowing some wonderful beautiful women into my life, I just have to remember not to project my screwed up ideas onto the present and future as the past slips away. I'm also reminded that I need to forgive and I do that regularly. forgetting is another matter my step-mother has been reaching out and I just cant go there. she was pretty awful and it even ended up with me being emancipated by the court and suing her for my daddys insurance money (I won) it was acrimonious to say the least. I have no desire to let her back into my life because in her dotage she feels the need to rid herself of guilt. that is her bed and she can lie in it..................so I release you of all pain that I felt and hope that you are well/happy but I am not bound by honor or need to let you back in. so mote it be.
sometimes my original meaning gets lost in the flood of words when I open channel so one hopes this mish-mash made sense to ya'll! and forgive me for airing such personal stuff into the universe but alas the book is open and sometimes in a tome ya gotta take the tales of woe with the fits of giggles!
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